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Friday, October 05, 2007 @ 7:19 PM Y

Last night, i cant fall asleep. I keep thinking of today. Dunno should come to school anot. I keep thinking if come school, when we are celebrating, will i be alone?? And i keep stressing myself that, its alright since it is the last day of sch and keep reminding myself to smile and laugh. I laugh to make myself to feel better or i'm really happy to do so? If one day i left, what makes me regret or things that haven do yet?? It come directly to my mind, and i'm very sure of the answer to the qns. Know what i want to do? i feel like recording or write out my last word. What will you think of? I'm going to die soon?? LOL

Today is the last day of sch. Which means that 'O' level is around the corner. First three periods as usual. After recess, we go to hall for celebration. First, mr phor have a speech den follow by some teachers sing song for us. Ms haiza wear our school uniform and perform. She is so cute! hahas. After that, we watch a video. Inside, include everyone of us primary school photos to now. Everyone screams when they see their face on the screen. Everyone looks so different! It reminds me of ch's photo! ahahaha. School gives us a dvd as saviours. And a cd with words on the top i given by ms hoe. (: Miss her~

After celebration, we go back to class to take our report book. My result is damn bad! Wish that my 'O' level result will be much more better than prelim. (: After that is photo taking time,all of us are busying taking photos with one another. I feel that i shouldn't be there. I still cant face anyone. Why?? haiz.

On the way home, i think of many things. Its make me feel so sad and tears almost run down infront of all the passengers. I feel like saying out all the things that i had keep in my heart for a long time. But i just cant say it out! Thinking of asking my mummy to take me go visit xin li yi sheng. Maybe that will help me to change into a brave, outgoing and open-minded person and live happily from now on? How i wish i can.

I really wish that i can go for tonight steamboat with ms hoe and classmates. But i think, if i go there will be alone and sad bah?? Everyone are in pairs and at there chatting and laughing except me? Like i am an abnormal people that no one will come to me? Go eat with ms hoe should be a happy and fun thing rite? Think i wont bah. Sorry to those friends tat i have turn down. Really sorry:( I really appreciate it. Thanks.

Should i ask mummy??